1/29/19
Hello world, me again. I guess this ain't going to be an every night thing and it's okay. It's my decision. It's my journey what I'm doing with this blog. Whatever it the fuck turns out to be. I honestly don't know where to start. I'll just go with what is on my mind. I have an appointment to meet with my director at 12:15 after my script analysis class but I am terrified. I have impostor syndrome. What I'm defining that as is feeling like I'm a lazy actor, I feel like I don't put in enough work yet I get rewarded so often in so many ways. I feel inferior when I'm around other actors because I fear they're doing the work, and I'm not. So I'm scared to talk to my director because she is someone who clearly thrusts herself into the work. A lot of the time I feel like I'm not doing it because I often look inwards for my answers to character questions and not ask the director and just figure it out myself, or I just don't thin...
